Saturday, March 10, 2012

Crossing off #15

Welcome. This is my first post. I'm warning you now, the whole thing is pretty long. I just finished my degree and I thought for my first post, I'd share an excerpted version of my final paper. I cut about half of it out, but it's still reeeeeaaaally long. So for those of you who have somewhere else to be, this is it. Thanks for stopping by. I'll post something super short next time; I promise.

For those adventurous enough to continue, here is my paper:

            In the summer of 1996, I wrote a list of things I wanted to accomplish in life. The items included feats of physical accomplishment, like finishing a marathon, and musical aspirations, such as learning certain favorite songs on the piano or guitar. Other goals revolved around spiritual growth, such as memorizing various scriptural passages. There were also intellectual goals like reading classic books and becoming adept at foreign languages. Included in this category was number 15, which read, “Graduate from BYU.” At the time, this seemed like a slam dunk as they say, an accomplishment that was almost certain as I was already enrolled and had completed most of my General Education courses. But not long after, due to frustrations over choices of major and personal difficulties, I dropped out of college.
            It felt then like this item would never be checked off, and with that thought came a realization that it was probably the single most important item on my list. Mentally, I moved it up to first place, my highest priority goal, and made it a matter of prayer. Years later I heard about the BGS program, and my hope returned.
            At the time, I was not really concerned about the Aims of a BYU Education or how the BGS program would help me develop in those areas, I just wanted to meet goal number 15. As I would come to realize, the list I had made all those years before was really a list of my Aims, and in general, they fit nicely with the Aims of BYU and the BGS program. I have also come to realize that the Lord was using this opportunity in my life to stretch me, to give me the opportunity to grow beyond the simple aims I had set for myself. He wanted me to see further, to aim higher, and accomplish more than I had thought possible.
            I’d like to share with you some examples of the opportunities I have been provided through the BGS program that have helped me to do more than just cross off number 15. These experiences have helped me to grow spiritually and intellectually, and have led me to develop my character more deeply so that I can be of more service to my family, my God, and my world.
                        As much as any lecture, test, or assignment, my personal character and moral commitment were strengthened by the eight-year time limit of the BGS program. When I made the commitment to return to school, I was working a steady job for my father-in-law, and had a pretty simple church calling in the primary, and I was able to complete the courses at a slow, convenient pace. One day my father-in-law informed me that I was being “laid off”, and wouldn’t work for him anymore. Instead, he gave me the opportunity to be self-employed, running a small portion of his business. While this was a great opportunity, I had to juggle my time, finances, and priorities more efficiently than I had in the past. Soon after that, I was called to be the president of a quorum, a rather time-consuming calling, and from there I was asked to teach early morning seminary, a calling that would stretch me even more.
            During this time, my classes moved to the back burner, as I focused on other aspects of my life. When I was released from seminary and able to return to my studies, I realized that the slow pace I had been making earlier wasn’t going to cut it anymore. I recommitted myself to finishing and created a new schedule. The classes that had once been planned in months were now figured in weeks. No longer was I counting how many hours I needed to study in a week, but how many I would study each day. The Lord stretched me, and my character grew.
            When I was at BYU full time, one of the main reasons I didn’t finish was because I could never choose a major. I bounced through several, but I couldn’t put my heart into any of them. Years later, when I started the BGS program, I had a career path in mind, but I eventually came to see that it wouldn’t work out either. At that point I made a decision; I would pick an emphasis that could help me in whatever path I chose, and I settled on Management, knowing that the leadership, communication, and problem solving skills would be useful in whatever field I chose.
            When I first saw the syllabus for one class, I was disheartened upon reading the requirement that I was to write more than 40 essays, each one between 400 and 800 words long. I’m sure the professor saw this as an opportunity to expand the breadth of my education, one of the Aims, but I came to see it differently. At this time in my life, thanks to my wife, I was becoming very involved in the world of writing and was considering it as a potential career. Rather than feeling discouraged at the prospect of writing so many essays, I made the decision to use this as an opportunity to strengthen this talent. Though they were time consuming, I found myself enjoying the writing experiences. Ironically, I thought I couldn’t earn a degree until I knew what I wanted to do, but instead, I found out what I wanted to do by finishing something completely different.
            The opportunity to finish my degree has been one of the greatest blessings of my life. I have truly grown spiritually, morally, and intellectually. The self-discipline and moral character I have acquired and the knowledge and skills I have gained will benefit not only me but those who I serve throughout my life. I’m almost ready to cross number 15 off my list. Looking at it now, I think that if I hadn’t finished this one item, I would have given up on the whole list. I’m going to keep crossing things off my list, and adding new ones as well. Maybe I’ll work on number 30 next: Write a book.

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